New
 drive
 Nihilism Wins. Let’s run.
 black light
 rule
 A fort
 valueless
 islands
 one
 new slang
 filled with
 a car
 City
 everyone leaves
 subconxxxv: a motel parking lot
 EEver Since
 damage(d)
 who i was
 Mirror room
 Changing
 Music by the week
 Fear
 Gaming
 nothing left to do
 Back pain
 Think about you
 FO4
 I keep getting spammed because I registered some domain names and it fills with rage and hatred and
 Securty
 Sitting outside
 Industry
 Burrowed
 Scaled
 Narcissism
 A moment later
 A minute
 Out
 Atlantis
 Flowers
 Job
 A small amount
 out of bed
 work work work work work
 crashes
 recovery
 Bed
 In tears, always. In years, always.
 thrown up
 a single path
 house
 Forgiven
 Priorities. Alone.
 A pill
 Get to you
 a waste of writing
 Like all my exits
 Nighttime. I watched piper sleep like we were really together
 In the sea
 Returning
 Band Aid
 In a carousel
 Morning
 Loved my self I'd be shooting you
 invisible vein
 too tired to be myself. too tired to dream or go on
 Audiobooks
 the commonwealth
 A million reasons I tel myself not to go out. But there's at least one reason I should.
 back on earth
 a mess
 a park bench
 a denial
 here
 Settling down
 Rush
 i'd say goodbye if it made any sense
 a womb, an obliterated womb
 On
 alone
 repeat
 item
 An invisible hell
 visitor
 bum fight
 starbucks
 Good
 A pill to make the bleeding stop
 living in seats
 Loss
 Junk
 near end
 đźŽ§what if we could
 fading into a tiny needle point
 Notes
 parallel worlds
 People, using
 Management
 Fall
 do i dream
 Lost
 where am i
 sea turtle
 next time
 next time
 next time
 hope and facebook
 Bathroom break
 I shouldn't write at work
 Girl
 Floundering
 somehow
 Turn off pain
 Distractions; not suicide
 Plugged in feelings of usefulness
 Pieces
 standing up
 Doors and windows
 House in the past
 Please please please
 A grey sky that seems endless
 Growth
 Fulcrum
 performance
 far away
 Helped. Neglect.
 Left
 Rebuild
 the way it was from the last of us
 Regret fixating. I need the charisma of youth to survive.
 the world
 Why wouldn't she respond to my messages, and why do I matter so little?
 Bird
 Lost
 an animal wrapped in newspaper
 ends.
 Belonging and glass
 Too much
 Outside
 Wind
 electric streets
 â€¦
 matter
 attacks
 fell
 the future
 Conservation
 group projects
 wonderful world
 a painting
 Tense
 phone conversation
 D
 A cloud of smoke
 Devoting
 Some kind of stranger
 A call
 Diary
 Diary
 Diary
 Permission
 marriage
 benevelont
 Lost
 reflect
 Try afaun
 held back
 turn off pain
 dream world
 sick
 turning
 twisting street lights in the darkness make me lonely, too
 subconxxxiv: we fade to grey
 destiny
 im special
 dishonored
 off
 racing past life and into a comfortable grave
 big screen
 ending
 red
 a walk among lizards chipmunks and foxes
 injustice / punishment
 worth & purpose
 reading music
 im a nightmare. monochrome
 cold medicine. third day of a seven day.
 poor hallucination
 about
 a name
 iness
 the minimum wage
 mother
 in sleep
 2300
 poor
 video games
 Animals
 Animals
 to make you numb
 new ideas about old things
 bates
 Animals
 three days
 Dancing
 Petting her ears
 cat vomit
 constant food consumption
 Machinations
 Loser, lost.
 rain falling
 today
 Too
 Unhealthy
 Today's panic attack; today I ran.
 Borderlands
 in this house
 Down
 paper trails
 Hell's not hot. It's grey.
 Wandering
 Romance
 sustained
 a bird
 cuddly
 work
 anonymous
 today
 yesterday
 hey
 sick
 crystal caverns/lotus
 better nights
 Stern Grove
 A blonde in Grace Cathedral
 "The sky was blonde like her"
  Blonde
 last night
 fool
 Disney princesses
 midnight
 wwwwwwwvague feeling of almost crying
 trees & stars
 again
 subconxxxiii: leaving
 subconxxxii: breaking
 thoughtful
 dear
 and then i went to the water
 movement
 and i will
 all around
 sky animals
 nothing
 moonshine
 de
 beauty
 tron
 morning walk
 amublances
 this world
 Obsession
 earnest
 gratitude
 in love again
 the law -emily jane white
 the limb clinic
 shitty beliefs
 subconxxxi: Serenade
 cry
 goes away
 weight
 fairy dance
 care
 in
 hhhhhh
 I didn't look at much but I saw a lot.
 beh
 just now
 intersection
 Begun
 morning
 bleeding
 Gah
 goodbye
 enough
 a maniqueen of depression
 magic
 shaking
 fight song
 obligato
 i wasn't so entranced with hearing myself speak because i was entranced with hearing her speak
 in place
 in it
 Insect
 become
 potential
 I never ever believed in me.
 White trash
 subconxxx a trip to the teeth
 Night
 8:18
 a girl called
 pummel
 I think I should see a doctor again
 Driving
 sitting in bed with a gold cat
 subconxxix
 Rain
 bookend
 adolescence
 sreen
 L
 we
 doors
 okay
 wish
 hide
 great
 day
 202
 people insects
 things
 ,
 it
 oo
 hold
 5:10
 day
 great
 pain
 compelment
 -
 °
 -
 for
 iiv
 again
 nostalgia
 subconxviii: kurt
 love yourself
 why
 time, no
 Music
 jack in the box
 glass
 Don't.
 all
 person
 conversation
 ,blah
 button
 shame
 turn into the whole wide world i made up
 help
 infallible pool
 later
 Three notes
 pages
 though
 though
 there
 egg
 them
 gone
 out
 message
 ever
 worthless
 went to move car
 glowpooch
 otherwise
 recluse
 looking at plants.
 I
 stars
 fuck it and fuck her.
 help me
 2010
 brother and mother are fighting
 hogwild
 -
 everyone will come.
 car cushions
 list
 -
 a train
 kitten kats
 animals
 subconxvii: unmoved
 puppets
 pian
 wish #1
 photographs
 i wish that i could be a king
 Im going to try to think of this thing
 ssssss
 woof
 subconxvi: stand
 what is this
 legz
 every girl's my girlfriend
 child on the side of the road
 homework
 world
 friend bed
 You have cured a million ghosts from roaming in my head
 fumes
 leaving hope three times in a row
 burnedt
 leaving hope
 leaving hope
 Soldier of War
 subconxv: iceskating
 drop that zero and getwith the heroz
 joy division
 this is a dialogue that needs to end it needs to end so that i can write things
 another dispute between two disparate places
 but still scary
 tum dum dum
 i changed the world
 -
 running shoes
 -
 10
 bursting fruit
 -
 -
 Glass
 change.
 rtteotw
 llll
 IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW
 thank dairy
 i bought lemonade and brought moshi to a party
 i bought lemonade and brought moshi to a party
 leave a scare
 goodbye
 hhhhh
 goats so many
 Pop
 baby
 a toy piano in my head that doesn't produce a single thought
 n
 drunk
 short pieces
 indigo
 c
 this stupid song describes my every night
 made sick by the bitches
 toy poodles
 everything pure is constantly being corrupted here
 knife until the final nice
 "So far, so much between…"
 fading like a glass balloon
 nife
 not that i ever really did??
 meandering still meandering me me me
 we apologize
 sob songs
 fuck this fucking day fuck
 -
 III arena fight
 oops
 nice until the final slice
 legs knuckles knees
 am i getting dumber
 the end again again
 it sucks
 fade
 happy america
 "give me your hair i'll never give you flowers"
 I have no more left to put out, oh god it's almost over isn't it
 round like a poliwhirl
 ice cream sunday
 ice cream sunday
 ice cream saturday
 i.v.
 prim n prime
 einseict
 most of the time
 Concrete
 This is a very uninteresting and pedestrian entry, but I need it to figure out what the fuck just happened.
 front
 front
 exh
 bird
 -
 er
 im on wellbutrin
 -
 perfect
 go
 convoluted
 short one
 angry entry
 hhhh
 1 3 4 49 10 2 3
 subconxiv: disappear, alleluia
 "sound turned off"
 "a glass balloon"
 routine
 too
 keep your head low
 i don't want to be tested
 feeling like a blob
 im feeling like a dog
 less
 tell
 oakland
 burned down
 audition
 subconxiii
 if i walk away i won't care if you lie or who it's with
 don't know why i care
 mind's made up
 mama mia
 quickfix
 stack unstack
 comfortfood
 ds
 miceballs
 safety
 ness
 flap
 sleep time
 songs
 Won't know why
 caninecaddy
 a balloon
 cake
 in ten years
 broken sticks
 void.
 photos
 01 i hate her i don't hate her.m4a
 "there's a man all alone, telling me his friends are gone"
 other things
 profile
 live
 crash
 bottled
 ritalin.
 missed
 ram:1:husky
 when it rains it pours that is what they say and it's apt
 16 clumsy and shy, that's the story of my life
 looked at him
  subconxii: bodies
 ears and mouths
  subconxi: kitting
 Some do it fast
 -
 A lot of things went wrong even though I tried to believe they weren't.
 Creatures stuffed and plush
 miss.
 i say it's me or drugs, you choose drugs
 stgand drivebackhome
 house on fire
 wilted
 call
 trying to find gba games
 Water
 rhyming synthesizers
 no need for flowery descriptions
 bad handwriting broken cameras broken everythings
 world in photograpphs
 boy and a cloud
 clean sheets
 re-
 sinned
  subconx: petting bee
 chauvinistick
 I like this here
 chickcaboob
 the end of sandwiches
 µuh
 friday 13 and miscellaniia
 duhmb
 'somebody's baby boy ain't coming home tonight'
 nachtmusik
 format
 Cranium
 vidual
  subconix: brothers
 meater
 Pop-Tart: Exhaustion eats up three days
 Floodlight
 Bababa
 nice
 Thompson
 QUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACK
  subconviii: I'M SO EMPTY… here without you.
 Little Wooden Dolls
 Popple Bangin'
 Hot Dog Story
 clumsily
 wasssssss
 Photographers are the backwash of Entertainment
 This one is about Scarlett Johansson
 subconxii: Seven
 need more eye-close
 tick
 subconxi: bright red
 Lithiou
  subconx
 Box ROT
  subconix: found and lost
  subconviii: piss is sterile
 Voice
 I must fix it.
 Flower + Suffocation
 Fever
  subconvii: Shampoo and Dicks in Tree
  subconvi
 Lithium and What it does
 Black Things
 Chicken Brewskies and Rabbit Keys
 This one is too convoluted
  subconv: angie at the door
 Walk
 Bench
  subconiv: batsun
 Abloy, Betty, Child, Old Man
 I.R. Chicken
  subconiii: eminem
 Nacho is life
 ACSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS is Old
 Death Cock
 Headhachet
  subconii: betty
 50 Cent and it's a DollarrDollarDollarDollar DD33
  subconi: graphic
 Piano, Popple, Middle Aged, Dopple
Dairyland