π Everywhere is Like This
π Days Gone
π Poisoned Children
π i whited out my name
π Poisoned
π i whited out my name
π Are you ok
π Running from Crumbling Atlas
π move
π no home left
π Immobilized
π Join Me in the Shadows, burning string, just the ashes
π Episodic Torture 16:15 Bedroom. Pacing. Bathroom. In front of the mirror. Water running. edited at Fort Funston to mitigate unhinged scribblings and adding a lot of stuff too with a musical score
π subconxxxv (corrected due to past instances of mistaking v for x)
π Momentum
π I feel like I couldn't smile if you drew one on me
π Coma White
π Peaks
π Life-Less
π Too Dark
π low
π Flatlined
π Didn't make it
π Back
π Talked
π just stop thinking them and they'll stop i know its hard but not really
π hey dairy
π fundamentally broken
π Bloodied Hand
π rock bottom
π Apex Depth
π i am a microwave burrito and i need to be warmed.
π Department of Indulgence
π Out
π feels
π Discipline Over Fear
π Given Nothing for Giving Up
π O.D.D. or D.D.O. I mean I.O.D. or O.I.D.
π Orders of Business
π spaceless
π Contaminant
π micro hell
π asleep
π Worse
π Outside Compulsive Disorder
π I miss drawing
π adapting
π Dear Dairy
π disgust follows
π Lava Level
π a moment of calm.
π vapor-wave
π targeted
π no hug for rapist
π nauSea
π phone
π walk_dog
π Laundry Bureaucracy
π | |
π laundry
π Risk Avoidance and Novelty
π catland
π workless
π no signal
π heat
π Timeline February 13 - March 16
π Dehydration
π fren
π The days are as tedious as before with nothing to look forward to
π Think they left
π Timeline 9:40-16:40
π Timeline 9:40-11:31
π laundry
π I had to space this entry throughout the work day so I wouldn't get in trouble
π Void
π Void
π missed_dog
π a_wakened
π the_end
π walk_dog
π Waiting, with the sound turned off
π Burst into Flames
π Planetarium
π Paralysis
π phoncallll
π Ominous
π Selling Sickness
π May you find your worth in the waking world.
π Hair Cut
π Vindicate
π Granted Passage
π in my car parked and typing
π Waves
π Blanket of Fog
π A Vast Ocean Wild, Lost, Uncrossed
π Born to Die
π Tasked
π Awoken
π pay
π reminiscent music
π reminiscent music
π Monopoly
π Monopoly
π curator whwre do i go - picnic bench
π Black Hole Dog House
π A Gulf Between All the Things I need and the Things I receive
π Pruning
π curator whwre do i go - picnic bench
π Pruning
π Pruning
π Apex Pu$$y
π Pruning
π Bridged
π Federally Mandated Choking and Throwing Up
π Broken Pattern
π What a Shit Show a Boat is
π Disenchanted by Life
π Defeated
π Born to Die
π Outracing the Speed of Pain
π Safety through Dead Babies
π Drone Strike
π Drone Strike
π Tangible
π USS San Francisco
π Shoreline
π Shoreline
π Super Mario Sunshine
π Super Mario Sunshine
π One Year, No Sleep
π Confined
π Confined
π I Have to Look Up Just to See Hell
π Caffeinated
π Make Me Great Again
π thanks
π Add-on
π Cinematic
π Days Gone
π Days Gone
π Days Gone
π burnout
π Smoke State
π Hate all these cars on the road
π about
π burnout
π My internet died
π Hard R
π wallet-sized
π wallet-sized
π Literal Fuckhead SF DA
π subconxxxix: abandoned at my perch
π Had a burrito and it wasn't bad
π Swamp Avoidance Disorder
π Coffee
π neverTrap
π Arcadia Half Moon Bay
π e-mail
π Spilled out
π Alliance Gas Station - Half Moon Bay, California
π planet
π about
π leave me alone i just want to go to the bathroom im not using your precious fucking table
π Fast Food Latina2
π Garbage Bag
π pizza grocer
π Some bitch named Daniel got fired from Respawn
π Some bitch named Daniel got fired from Respawn
π Bottle
π i want to be alone when night falls
π NWH
π aspiress
π aspiress
π world of shit and managers
π aspiress
π lone contagion
π lone contagion
π original maps
π phone call
π subconxxxviii: rounded edges
π subconxxxviii: rounded edges
π breath
π gutter glitter
π Art Box
π Hate
π Dreamed
π nighttime neon
π branches
π subconxxxvii: groundfrog
π light
π run
π im on a bench
π tired of punctuation
π any more
π out of touch
π now 18:00
π fear of the outside
π sky kingdom
π now 18:00
π 24 hours
π i hy
π get pumped
π horndog misery
π horndog misery
π McVicker not van driesen
π planet office
π a lonely platform
π subconxxxvi: contaminant
π humans of flat
π callcall
π i slept again
π pile of dead things
π im parked
π im parked
π im in a parking lot
π π§downfall by fraunhofer diffraction
π i bought the call of duty battle pass for 4.99
π π§paradise (feat. raff) -duett
π π§paradise (feat. raff) -duett
π im at work
π traumarama
π settle down beavis
π settle down beavis
π small
π humans of flat
π walls
π call of duty
π asl
π lapse
π garbage land
π life long
π thinking about video games
π -
π meaning
π -
π writing is something you can do if you still have thoughts
π drive
π Nihilism Wins. Letβs run.
π black light
π rule
π A fort
π valueless
π islands
π one
π new slang
π filled with
π a car
π City
π everyone leaves
π subconxxxv: a motel parking lot
π EEver Since
π damage(d)
π who i was
π Mirror room
π Changing
π Music by the week
π Fear
π Gaming
π nothing left to do
π Back pain
π Think about you
π FO4
π I keep getting spammed because I registered some domain names and it fills with rage and hatred and
π Securty
π Sitting outside
π Industry
π Burrowed
π Scaled
π Narcissism
π A moment later
π A minute
π Out
π Atlantis
π Flowers
π Job
π A small amount
π out of bed
π work work work work work
π crashes
π recovery
π Bed
π In tears, always. In years, always.
π thrown up
π a single path
π house
π Forgiven
π Priorities. Alone.
π A pill
π Get to you
π a waste of writing
π Like all my exits
π Nighttime. I watched piper sleep like we were really together
π In the sea
π Returning
π Band Aid
π In a carousel
π Morning
π Loved my self I'd be shooting you
π invisible vein
π too tired to be myself. too tired to dream or go on
π Audiobooks
π the commonwealth
π A million reasons I tel myself not to go out. But there's at least one reason I should.
π back on earth
π a mess
π a park bench
π a denial
π here
π Settling down
π Rush
π i'd say goodbye if it made any sense
π a womb, an obliterated womb
π On
π alone
π repeat
π item
π An invisible hell
π visitor
π bum fight
π starbucks
π Good
π A pill to make the bleeding stop
π living in seats
π Loss
π Junk
π near end
π π§what if we could
π fading into a tiny needle point
π Notes
π parallel worlds
π People, using
π Management
π Fall
π do i dream
π Lost
π where am i
π sea turtle
π next time
π next time
π next time
π hope and facebook
π Bathroom break
π I shouldn't write at work
π Girl
π Floundering
π somehow
π Turn off pain
π Distractions; not suicide
π Plugged in feelings of usefulness
π Pieces
π standing up
π Doors and windows
π House in the past
π Please please please
π A grey sky that seems endless
π Growth
π Fulcrum
π performance
π far away
π Helped. Neglect.
π Left
π Rebuild
π the way it was from the last of us
π Regret fixating. I need the charisma of youth to survive.
π the world
π Why wouldn't she respond to my messages, and why do I matter so little?
π Bird
π Lost
π an animal wrapped in newspaper
π ends.
π Belonging and glass
π Too much
π Outside
π Wind
π electric streets
π β¦
π matter
π attacks
π fell
π the future
π Conservation
π group projects
π wonderful world
π a painting
π Tense
π phone conversation
π D
π A cloud of smoke
π Devoting
π Some kind of stranger
π A call
π Diary
π Diary
π Diary
π Permission
π marriage
π benevelont
π Lost
π reflect
π Try afaun
π held back
π turn off pain
π dream world
π sick
π turning
π twisting street lights in the darkness make me lonely, too
π subconxxxiv: we fade to grey
π destiny
π im special
π dishonored
π off
π racing past life and into a comfortable grave
π big screen
π ending
π red
π a walk among lizards chipmunks and foxes
π injustice / punishment
π worth & purpose
π reading music
π im a nightmare. monochrome
π cold medicine. third day of a seven day.
π poor hallucination
π about
π a name
π iness
π the minimum wage
π mother
π in sleep
π 2300
π poor
π video games
π Animals
π Animals
π to make you numb
π new ideas about old things
π bates
π Animals
π three days
π Dancing
π Petting her ears
π cat vomit
π constant food consumption
π Machinations
π Loser, lost.
π rain falling
π today
π Too
π Unhealthy
π Today's panic attack; today I ran.
π Borderlands
π in this house
π Down
π paper trails
π Hell's not hot. It's grey.
π Wandering
π Romance
π sustained
π a bird
π cuddly
π work
π anonymous
π today
π yesterday
π hey
π sick
π crystal caverns/lotus
π better nights
π Stern Grove
π A blonde in Grace Cathedral
π "The sky was blonde like her"
π Blonde
π last night
π fool
π Disney princesses
π midnight
π wwwwwwwvague feeling of almost crying
π trees & stars
π again
π subconxxxiii: leaving
π subconxxxii: breaking
π thoughtful
π dear
π and then i went to the water
π movement
π and i will
π all around
π sky animals
π nothing
π moonshine
π de
π beauty
π tron
π morning walk
π amublances
π this world
π Obsession
π earnest
π gratitude
π in love again
π the law -emily jane white
π the limb clinic
π shitty beliefs
π subconxxxi: Serenade
π cry
π goes away
π weight
π fairy dance
π care
π in
π hhhhhh
π I didn't look at much but I saw a lot.
π beh
π just now
π intersection
π Begun
π morning
π bleeding
π Gah
π goodbye
π enough
π a maniqueen of depression
π magic
π shaking
π fight song
π obligato
π i wasn't so entranced with hearing myself speak because i was entranced with hearing her speak
π in place
π in it
π Insect
π become
π potential
π I never ever believed in me.
π White trash
π subconxxx a trip to the teeth
π Night
π 8:18
π a girl called
π pummel
π I think I should see a doctor again
π Driving
π sitting in bed with a gold cat
π subconxxix
π Rain
π bookend
π adolescence
π sreen
π L
π we
π doors
π okay
π wish
π hide
π great
π day
π 202
π people insects
π things
π ,
π it
π oo
π hold
π 5:10
π day
π great
π pain
π compelment
π -
π οΏ½
π -
π for
π iiv
π again
π nostalgia
π subconxviii: kurt
π love yourself
π why
π time, no
π Music
π jack in the box
π glass
π Don't.
π all
π person
π conversation
π ,blah
π button
π shame
π turn into the whole wide world i made up
π help
π infallible pool
π later
π Three notes
π pages
π though
π though
π there
π egg
π them
π gone
π out
π message
π ever
π worthless
π went to move car
π glowpooch
π otherwise
π recluse
π looking at plants.
π I
π stars
π fuck it and fuck her.
π help me
π 2010
π brother and mother are fighting
π hogwild
π -
π everyone will come.
π car cushions
π list
π -
π a train
π kitten kats
π animals
π subconxvii: unmoved
π puppets
π pian
π wish #1
π photographs
π i wish that i could be a king
π Im going to try to think of this thing
π ssssss
π woof
π subconxvi: stand
π what is this
π legz
π every girl's my girlfriend
π child on the side of the road
π homework
π world
π friend bed
π You have cured a million ghosts from roaming in my head
π fumes
π leaving hope three times in a row
π burnedt
π leaving hope
π leaving hope
π Soldier of War
π subconxv: iceskating
π drop that zero and getwith the heroz
π joy division
π this is a dialogue that needs to end it needs to end so that i can write things
π another dispute between two disparate places
π but still scary
π tum dum dum
π i changed the world
π -
π running shoes
π -
π 10
π bursting fruit
π -
π -
π Glass
π change.
π rtteotw
π llll
π IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW
π thank dairy
π i bought lemonade and brought moshi to a party
π i bought lemonade and brought moshi to a party
π leave a scare
π goodbye
π hhhhh
π goats so many
π Pop
π baby
π a toy piano in my head that doesn't produce a single thought
π n
π drunk
π short pieces
π indigo
π c
π this stupid song describes my every night
π made sick by the bitches
π toy poodles
π everything pure is constantly being corrupted here
π knife until the final nice
π "So far, so much betweenοΏ½"
π fading like a glass balloon
π nife
π not that i ever really did??
π meandering still meandering me me me
π we apologize
π sob songs
π fuck this fucking day fuck
π -
π III arena fight
π oops
π nice until the final slice
π legs knuckles knees
π am i getting dumber
π the end again again
π it sucks
π fade
π happy america
π "give me your hair i'll never give you flowers"
π I have no more left to put out, oh god it's almost over isn't it
π round like a poliwhirl
π ice cream sunday
π ice cream sunday
π ice cream saturday
π i.v.
π prim n prime
π einseict
π most of the time
π Concrete
π This is a very uninteresting and pedestrian entry, but I need it to figure out what the fuck just happened.
π front
π front
π exh
π bird
π -
π er
π im on wellbutrin
π -
π perfect
π go
π convoluted
π short one
π angry entry
π hhhh
π 1 3 4 49 10 2 3
π subconxiv: disappear, alleluia
π "sound turned off"
π "a glass balloon"
π routine
π too
π keep your head low
π i don't want to be tested
π feeling like a blob
π im feeling like a dog
π less
π tell
π oakland
π burned down
π audition
π subconxiii
π if i walk away i won't care if you lie or who it's with
π don't know why i care
π mind's made up
π mama mia
π quickfix
π stack unstack
π comfortfood
π ds
π miceballs
π safety
π ness
π flap
π sleep time
π songs
π Won't know why
π caninecaddy
π a balloon
π cake
π in ten years
π broken sticks
π void.
π photos
π 01 i hate her i don't hate her.m4a
π "there's a man all alone, telling me his friends are gone"
π other things
π profile
π live
π crash
π bottled
π ritalin.
π missed
π ram:1:husky
π when it rains it pours that is what they say and it's apt
π 16 clumsy and shy, that's the story of my life
π looked at him
π subconxii: bodies
π ears and mouths
π subconxi: kitting
π Some do it fast
π -
π A lot of things went wrong even though I tried to believe they weren't.
π Creatures stuffed and plush
π miss.
π i say it's me or drugs, you choose drugs
π stgand drivebackhome
π house on fire
π wilted
π call
π trying to find gba games
π Water
π rhyming synthesizers
π no need for flowery descriptions
π bad handwriting broken cameras broken everythings
π world in photograpphs
π boy and a cloud
π clean sheets
π re-
π sinned
π subconx: petting bee
π chauvinistick
π I like this here
π chickcaboob
π the end of sandwiches
π οΏ½uh
π friday 13 and miscellaniia
π duhmb
π 'somebody's baby boy ain't coming home tonight'
π nachtmusik
π format
π Cranium
π vidual
π subconix: brothers
π meater
π Pop-Tart: Exhaustion eats up three days
π Floodlight
π Bababa
π nice
π Thompson
π QUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACK
π subconviii: I'M SO EMPTYοΏ½ here without you.
π Little Wooden Dolls
π Popple Bangin'
π Hot Dog Story
π clumsily
π wasssssss
π Photographers are the backwash of Entertainment
π This one is about Scarlett Johansson
π subconxii: Seven
π need more eye-close
π tick
π subconxi: bright red
π Lithiou
π subconx
π Box ROT
π subconix: found and lost
π subconviii: piss is sterile
π Voice
π I must fix it.
π Flower + Suffocation
π Fever
π subconvii: Shampoo and Dicks in Tree
π subconvi
π Lithium and What it does
π Black Things
π Chicken Brewskies and Rabbit Keys
π This one is too convoluted
π subconv: angie at the door
π Walk
π Bench
π subconiv: batsun
π Abloy, Betty, Child, Old Man
π I.R. Chicken
π subconiii: eminem
π Nacho is life
π ACSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS is Old
π Death Cock
π Headhachet
π subconii: betty
π 50 Cent and it's a DollarrDollarDollarDollar DD33
π subconi: graphic
π Piano, Popple, Middle Aged, Dopple
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