April 15, 2007|
Lately, everything hurts more.
Ive become aware of how much women try to manipulate me and fuck with my head to build their own egos.
And how I feel like the ugliest person in the room at a party.
and how I'm trapped in a wheel of nothing and nowhere.
and how i'm constnatly on the verge of tears
and only songs make them come out.
and i think th ereason i always feel like i'm on the verge of a nervous breakdownn, but never fall, is because of my ocd. i need to protect my things
and last night at a party my friend just kept trying to get me to leave
and i feel like this isn't sttuff i can brush off
because it just piles up. and never goes away
i want to be institutionalized