July 17, 2009
00:27
and what really sucks is when we were together, it was not only she who was nicer, but i was expressing more sympathy and everything, more than ever. she made me want to be a better person, and she brought me out of my hiding place
and now she's back in her hiding place, and I am back in mine, and she treats me like someone she hates, and I struggle to be nice again, to be nice to my mother, to be nice to everyone. I want to be nice. It was easier to be nice with her. easier to feel in general and to express myself in general
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