Given Nothing for Giving Up
May 26, 2022
after trying to organize things it becomes clear why I gave up on trying for the most part. when theres something to do i feel dread if its coming up like it cannibalizes all the moments between now and then, and actually organizing and prioritizing feels like a disaster, so i'm just bugging out, feeling like a hierarchy is impossible and feels exhausting. just thinking about how to organize my activities drains my energy so that all i want to do is sleep or, if i want to stay awake, look to something that isn't so mentally taxing.