January 14, 2018
00:05
Restarted using a notes app I was using a lot about a decade ago.
Reminded me that I wrote constantly. Musical ideas constantly. Funny ridiculous comic ideas constantly.
I don't know where I went, but I have been gone ever since.
I don't know if I've succumbed to addiction or something more insidious.
I don't know where my self went or why all that seems to be left is the discarded fat.
I am just writing again to write.
If I look at this in ten years, maybe then I can think I was not just leftovers.
I used to feel things. I was miserable, but I did seem to be real.
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