I can't rationalize my emotional response but it feels awful. It feels like I'm overreacting inside. A cascade of other fearful and frenzied thoughts followed. Thinking about that last girl. Thinking about not being able to play my PS4 again soon.
Because I'm in the house again. But only until someone else moves into my room. And then I'll be in my car again.

Right now I just sleep on a pad in my sleeping bag. Next to a 40" tv and my PlayStation. And it's nice to play. And for the most part I seem to be able to just be positive about the opportunity. But in that cascade of feelings is the fear.