August 17, 2016|
In target as usual on my breaks. I don't know it all seems so insurmountable today. I'm going to stare at PlayStation games as usual and try to fantasize. I think she took my fantasies when she participated in them. I need them back.
I would also like to get into some cerebral activity not just to kill the pain but also because my job feels so mind numbing I need to solve problems in my head while I'm at work. I wonder what I should look at. Most of all I don't want to feel pain anymore and I want to feel loved.