A friend who has been very supportive and all that
But I feel like this desperation and helplessness just doesn't leave me with much. Like you have to keep your head above water or everyone will leave

I don't feel like I can stand it

I've split my clonazepam into four parts throughout the day to help me function. Because I get close to the edge multiple times throughout the day. Seems to make more sense to take smaller increments throughout the day than one in the morning and one at night.