Just used my ten minute break to make a psychiatric appointment with a place that requires you to tell them your pronouns. Just glad they didn't ask on phone. That line of inquiry makes me intensely uncomfortable.

I wanted to play COD Mobile after the call since I felt cheated out of my break by this phone call I haven't wanted to make, but by the end I appreciated the process and the feeling of completing it made it feel like a real break. This is very important for me to constantly reinforce because I so often just do immediately rewarding things because I feel like responsibility is gray and drags me down to the pits of hell and I need to fill every moment with noise and color. But all the color exploded as I completed it.

Recently noticed how tired and weak I felt for two days, contrasted by one day of taking protein twice. I mainly just took it before working out, and stopped really noticing any improvement, but now I'm taking it 2x like vitamins and even though I don't feel very strong, I feel more capable of physically moving and waking up.