October 10, 2009
22:45
time has lost some of its meaning today
im not very smart in this moment
this moment keeps dragging on
i should probably just give up on the whole apprehension about not doing anything today thing and just try again tomorrow
but i need to practice every day.
i have been playing silent hill
i feel unimportant today
also silly
how do i move out
i don't know
my situation is unfortunate
i am mentally ill.
no really i am.
i don't know how to state this enough
i know i am ill because there are things i want to do, and i have everything i need to do them
but still cannot
if i killed myself, i would only be dead for a minute
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